Monday, June 18, 2007

the physical vs the psychological

I think you really come to realize how deeply someone has affected your psyche when you see how effected you are even physically.

its astounding that the mere thought of a person can make my heart beat twice as fast and my stomach turn over. seeing them in person invariably makes me shed much larger amounts of hair than usual. and it may be a complete coincidence, but it seems to me that not seen or had any contact with this person for 5 months literally caused my reproductive cycle to come to a screeching halt, which (again, coincidentally?) only resumed after seeing this person again after all that time. (tmi? sorry.) I saw doctors about it and was told there was nothing physically wrong.... is it actually possible that my self; my mind, body, and spirit, is actually that attached to another human being?

mentally I feel at peace on the subject and have consciously came to a point where I know for certain that he isn't it for me. I just have to wonder how long its going to take the rest of me to follow suit.

this is getting ridiculous.

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Go big or go home!

This weekend was definitely a time to do lots of things I make it a practice not to do under normal circumstances.... I guess I'll file it under 'special occasion' and smile to myself about ridiculously fun and scandalous it was.

Vague much?