The rest is still unwritten.

I have this feeling that something big is about to happen.

I think its a combination of a lot of circumstances. After a really rough year, I've taken the past few months to regain my balance and composure and now that I've reached an acceptable level of ok-ness it's time for my next step. Another part of it is my unfulfillment in my job; the fact that my eyes are wide open looking for the next positive opportunity that may come along. I'm well aware that my mindset controls my every thought, every action that takes place in my life, and being a very impulsive person my mindset tends to change without a second's notice. So having reached this point where I'm feeling unappreciated doing my full time job, noncommittal about where I'm building a clientele, and overall unsettled about where I am and what I'm doing here, its no surprise that I'm wondering if this is where I belong. On top of all that, I'm in a place right now where I'm not desperately looking for someone, nor am I unavailable, and I'm definitely not just going to jump head first into something I feel so-so about it, but I'd be happy to start something with someone if they were the right person for me. I have room to be picky because I'm not in any rush.

So it feels like something big is on the horizon.... could it be a move? A new job? A boyfriend? Only time will tell.

Today is where your book begins....
The rest is still unwritten.

Can you hear me?

He is amazing.

• He is someone I can hardly take my eyes off of, not just because I am so attracted to him, but because of how he makes the butterflies in my stomach flutter when our eyes meet.
• He's so charming, so full of charisma, that wherever he goes people want to know him.
• He's got spunk, and class, he can talk to anyone about anything. He has a great general knowledge of the world and what's happening in it, and an open mind about ideas different than his own.
• He's mature and together but he has a side of him that is still a child.
• He has a career, not just a job, that he has worked towards and gained momentum in,
  where he is respected and appreciated, and his mind is always on his next step.
  He takes care of himself physically and emotionally, and he's stable and mellow
  and hardly ever gets mad. He's got confidence and a little ego but not excessive
  pride. He can dish it out as well as take it, he doesn't take things personally.
  He trusts me, and when we go out together and I'm talking to other people he isn't looking at me because he thinks he has to make sure I'm not doing anything he wouldn't like, but because he can hardly keep his eyes off me. He's crazy about me. And although it might look like I don't notice because I'm too wrapped up in my conversation, I always know he's looking at me and secretly I'm feeling completely adored.
• I'm able to me just as much myself around him as I am around any of my friends, or alone. I can tell him anything without fear of being judged or looked down on.
• He knows that there is a perfect balance for me of being independent and taken care of and he knows when to let me handle things myself and when to look out for me.
• He's flexible and spontaneous enough to be able to pick up and go to away for the weekend to Vegas or Tahoe, he loves to travel and plan adventures for us. He makes me feel safe.
• The things he says are never just for my benefit or because he's trying to score points, he only says exactly how he feels. He's completely honest and straightforward with me, which means I'm never worried that he's upset or annoyed about something and I'm not aware of it.
• He is very conscious of doing the little things, like getting my car washed while I'm at work or waking me up with breakfast, and knows that they mean more to me than the occasional expensive gift or showy dinner.
• He's totally respectful. He's stylish and handsome and his smile makes me melt a little bit every time I see it.
• He thinks I make him the luckiest guy in the world and when he tells me that I laugh and kiss him, but deep down I know that I couldn't possibly be luckier.
• He is my best friend,
• my confidant,
• my shoulder to cry on,
• my big spoon,
• my body guard,
• my partner in crime,
• the love of my life.

I love him.

I haven't met him yet.

He's my ideal guy. He isn't perfect because no one is, but he's perfect for me. He's out there somewhere, and since everything happens for a reason I know that the paths I choose are leading me to him. I know he's out there and I'm going to find him.

Someday.

Every Journey Begins With One Step.

It's just after midnight and newly January 22nd.

I got home a few minutes ago from another weekend out of town, my favorite lately. This one was spent in Orange County and San Diego with friends. The drive back, which as usual took place in the dark on a nearly empty freeway, prompted the usual self reflection period that allows me to clear my head, step back, and take an introspective look at where I am and where I am going.

It's hard, in the midst of life, to look at your position in it objectively and consider if where you are is where is best for you. I realized that above everything else, in the broadest sense, the one thing that is important in my life is to move forward. The last thing I will ever want to be is stagnant. When I come to a point where I feel like i'm standing in one place, doing one thing, and I know that it's getting me nowhere fast, I know its time to make a change.

The more I thought about my life and where I am, the more I realized that I need to make changes in all different aspects - my career, my mindset, the people around me, the way I prioritize the things in my life... and I know that many times my thoughts go by the wayside unless I get them down in solid form.

So here goes. The title of this new blog I think is appropriate - the most fitting translation in Latin for "moving forward."

Promoveo Promovi Promotum.